damien rice

Damien Rice is the real shits, people. Coupled with Lisa Hannigan they breathe life into hypnotising magical music. I thought Cannonball and Cold Water were the best painfully arresting masterpieces ever and nothing could top them, but his new ones, 9 Crimes and Rootless Tree, will totally haunt me for the rest of my life.

What's the adjective beyond suicidal loss-for-words beautiful?
Damien Rice I want to have your baby.

Sing to me sing to me sing to me sing to me.

moving moving on

Was just thinking about what to do for the weekend when I bumped into Andy The Senior Interior Designer online. And bless his soul, he reminded me that he still owes me a meal. Free food, whoa! I couldn't shower and leave my room soon enough. It'd be nice to catch up with someone who doesn't know what I've just gone through because, seriously, I'm done with the awkward pat on the back or shoulder rub and careful "how're you feeling now" in hushed gravity. It's a great feeling to know that so many people around me care, but it seems like nobody really knows how to handle the death of the friend of a friend. Tough for caring buddies to address the situation, tough for me to respond to their attempts.

I've been a wreck for the past week. Thank you all who braved my unsual quietness and expressionless face to give me an encouraging smile. I'm done mourning. It'll be what Nido wants for his loved ones anyway. And I've decided not to fly to Taiwan.

Moving on.

Lunch with Andy at my favourite pizza place in The Curve. Their chicken pepperoni pesto pizza is my personal recommendation. Some say it's kinda tasteless but that's how I like it. Andy's spicy bacon spaghetti isn't too bad either, but a tad too oily for me. As usual, Andy was very, very shy and quiet. And doesn't know I took his pictures.

Starbucks at Borders. It's lovely how we can just bring books or magazines over to the table for a free read. The couch was really cosy but I couldn't concentrate on relaxing because I kept kicking and loosening the electrical socket beside the table! And drew irritated glances from notebook users who're plugged in!

seize the day

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
A melody, a memory, or just one picture

Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

No chance to hear your voice or hold your hand.
No chance for you to nag me not to drink so much coffee.
No chance to see your writing on personalised cards.
You taught me the joys of backpacking, yet left me to do it alone.
It's not fair. It really isn't.
I still have so many questions.

take me away - avril lavigne

I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside; all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do

All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away

I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands

I'm going nowhere
I'm getting nowhere
Take me away
I'm going nowhere

Take me away
Break me away
Take me away

oh God WHY

I was still sleeping when the phone call came.
I can't believe it.
I can't believe my godbrother died in a car accident.
I don't want to believe it.

Nido, you always say you don't understand my blog in English.
So this is for you.

老哥
那次在南投市客運站等你 我其實很緊張 也有點不好意思
第一次看到你 你開著沒窗的小貨車 當我們7人團的司機
去集集車站 去買米酒梅子 一路上你都在找我沒看過的柳丁樹
我們往日月潭的山路慢慢開 你一直向擠在後面的6個人道歉
可能是冬天吧 半山那酒家熱騰騰的飯菜真的好好吃
日月潭的民宿老闆一直逗你說你很帥人很好 你紅著臉傻笑
叫你多喝杯米酒 你都不要 說開車下山要集中精神
現在你自己卻喝了酒去撞電纜 老哥你怎麼可以這樣

其實
我一直裝著爬不上你的小貨車 因為想感覺你的手拉著我
你說你忙我都裝生氣 結果你好幾晚放了工就飛著來找我
日月潭 清境 台中市 你每個晚上都來 我真的真的好感動
你借來的小貨車真的很爛 可是大家因為你的熱情都玩的很開心
你是最好的哥哥 最好的地陪
當了你快兩年的笨蛋妹妹 我 算是榮幸了

老哥 現在你不用煩惱旅費了 記得要來這裡看看我
我到了世界任何角落 也一定會帶著你的記憶 鼓勵 和笑聲

churrasco

Last night I brought the band (plus one significant other) out for some Brazilian barbeque at SDCC. I will definitely saw off my left foot with a rusty bread knife than to go again. I've been there 3 times in a month, and seriously, enough is enough. The food isn't that bad (love the fish and lamb) but the thought of shoving another piece of capsicum into my mouth gives me the dry heaves. Let's play pictionary since Multiply is still kickass slow.

The drummer loves corn. Not Korn but corn. Geez what a corny joke. No wonder his face like that.

Behold the magic fingers. Although not as nimble in scooping ice-cream compared to stroking guitar strings. Significant other blatantly refused to be featured.

Doesn't this being look like he's stepped straight out of a dreamy Japanese manga? He's an angel in real life too. Dependable. Mature. What are you girls waiting for? (aunties disallowed)

We got shooed from the restaurant right after 10. With still so much of the night left, everyone switched base camp to my house. Ok, room. And started reviewing recordings of our practice sessions. And this time, significant other was caught in the picture while trying to keep herself busy. I think she read all synopsis (10 times over?) on my Lost DVDs.

Then the "real" fun started. I learned how to play Uno (yayaya, laugh all you want) and the boys were rewarded with Vodka and Malibu cocktails (you think they'd come to my place for just a simple, innocent visit?) and they helped themselves with seconds and thirds until all my liquor gone. Gaaaaaaar. How am I supposed to practise now?!

And this is the consequence of greedy people who drink too much too fast. Muahahaha. I already got my sleeping bag out and ready, just in case. Luckily they could still drive home after resting for a bit.

long gone

Has it been that long? HAS it? Oh gosh I haven't been able to log on to Blogger (I wonder how did Aragon manage to post something every other day or so) for ages! Yes yes I've learned my bitter lesson not to procrastinate. The first week I was too lazy to put up anything. About the trip back to my hometown with colleagues and some interesting incidents along the way. About watching Cicakman and actually enjoying it a wee bit. About the end-of-year company lunch at the office. About performing with the band for Christmas celebration at the church and then the community project a day later.

Then the earthquake messed up undersea cables in Taiwan and internet got paralysed. My connection's so slow I want to scrape out my eyeballs with a blunt, rusty spoon. Now I can't even post up pictures at Multiply or blog in plain text. I really wanted to. How on earth am I going to catch up on a whole month of happenings? The busiest, filled-with-activities month of the year at that. Even when internet's back up and I can start blogging again, I lost the excitement and mood to write about most stuff already. Who wants to hear about Christmas reports in February the next year? Gaaaarrgh.

Anyway, Blogger is back up for me, so at least, a little celebration. And the boys got tickets to Muse concert end of February! Woo hoo hoo! Muse is coming! Nobody stands in the way between Matt Bellamy and the ogress or risk getting run over by my trusty (deadly) little Lisa! Ooooh which reminds me, I gave Lisa a new year pressie slimming my wallet by RM581 - new tyres! She's pleased and doesn't fail to remind me so by shaking even harder while I'm driving.

Merry belated Christmas and Happy New Year everyone!